"They never had to Love me."
743Its the worst feeling knowing she is going to have with you what i never got to, that she will be the one your family will know about and all your friends. She wont be a secret like i was. She wont have to feel the pain and loneliness of being so distant from you when we wanted to be so close, i have been dreading the day you would find someone else, someone that will get treated better then you treated me. Ill get pushed aside and used only when you want me, ill never have you the way i want to, you will never love me like i love you. I keep holding on to something that is so unrealistic, but when you speak to me with that voice i cant help but let you back in and fall for every lie you tell me. I feel so empty when I’m not speaking to you like as if i don’t exist to you then i don’t exist to anyone. You play me like I’m your puppet as you know ill do whatever you say, you know i will give in to you I’m not strong enough to say good bye, I’m not strong enough to stop loving you or let the words and memories fade away. I wish i could have you as mine but mostly i wish i could stop loving you with every ounce of myself, i want to hide from everything so i don’t have to show how much you damage my heart my courage my confidents and my will power. I feel like nothing without you being in my life. You will probably love her and treat her how a woman should be treated and i know i should want you to be happy but why does it have to leave me so damn miserable, why?
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why can’t you want me like the other boys do? they stare at me while i crave you.
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